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Sunday, April 26, 2009
Mars VS Venus
7:09 PM
I wonder if a guy flirts with so many girls is cause he wants em to like him.
To feel popular?

But at the same the guy likes this girl and flirts with her too.
Whats all this about?

& I wonder if anybody will actually reply to this.
Karen might ;)

Been thinking/feeling ALOT ALOT of emotions lately.
I can think about what horrible shit that has just happened and be happy later on because ANOTHER thing has happened.And in the end,all these emotions = CONFUSED.

Alot of stuff has been piling up :(
& none are actually solved.



I can do better.
12:10 AM
You don't know how much you've hurt me.
Or the others.

Have you thought that you trying to give * a shoulder to lean on would somehow hurt the rest?
It shows how bootless, dysfunctional, idle, inept
I am.

I don't really respect you as much anymore.



Friday, April 24, 2009
Karen's.
2:46 PM
KAREN'S
blog.


Reality.


To JJ:
But we don't like it when you become someone you're not. We love you for who you are.

I hate lying, I hate being someone I'm not, I hate it when people think I'm someone I'm not.
But to be a singer, that's what you have to do. You have to put on a fake front, be somebody you're not, so that people will like you.
It's disgusting to be fake to get people's attention. But that's what you have to do.
When Rainie Yang said she was actually a tomboy and not the sweet cute girl she portrays at all, a lot of fans were shocked.
Tomboy singers need to become more feminine. Olinda was made to wear a skirt. And look at how much Ella has changed.
In order to be a singer, a public figure, you have to be who people want you to be, you can't be yourself.

Let's say you were a singer, and you hate cute things, but your company wants you to be someone cute. You can't express your own opinions on blogs etc, becuase the media would say you're just trying to be someone you're not to get attention (which is always true). You can't tell anyone about how you feel. You have to lie to your fans that you love Hello Kitty and you think vulgarities are scary. Nobody will know how you really feel inside. When you're a public figure, the public owns you. Your opinion has to be hidden and unheard.

I'm someone who takes criticism very hard, because I believe that people usually say nice things they don't mean, so when they say something that isn't nice, they mean it and feel very strongly about it. Which means the problem is quite serious already.
Because of my pessimism, I get quite affected by criticism.
Celebrities/singers get negative remarks all the time. Some can be super hurting. I read some of the comments about SC Squared during Crezawards and they were really painful; I'd have died if I were Sherm/Nadine/Shuzhen.
But that's reality. You can't make everyone happy, and some people will hate you, and not everyone is nice and polite. But if you're vulnerable to criticism, you wouldn't be able to survive in an industry like this.

Guess what. Maybe not achieving my dream isn't such a bad thing after all. (: It's best to be a nobody.



SOS
2:28 PM
I wanna get off the LJ boat.

It may be experienced but...
I don't like being told what to do.

I have enough of that in Secondary school.

_________________________________________________________

Maybe it's because you care enough that you said all those things,otherwise you probably wouldn't have thought of tallking to us. Thank you.

& Thank you D for helping me see that.
& Thank you Karen for always being there.
I might not get to see you that much anymore but I really miss you.
I feel...or WE feel INCOMPLETE.

I feel like my dreams just shattered a little yesterday.
There's so much more than just purely music in this Mega fake Super mean place.

help.


I miss 小珂 :(

She misses us too :(
http://blog.sina.com.cn/sayurikeke



For Passion. To be Fake.
1:33 PM
Im at Titanic who sank yesterday.




Outside Expo.
Heading for Lee Si Song Lee Wei Song, Garden of Friendship concert. Thanks alot GRACE! :)


A wide blue azure sky of nothing.
Wish I could see it now.I feel very empty and lost. I don't wanna give up.
But to be fake for Passion? Or to be real?

I can see how Britney can go crazy.

Jt & Jacey

GRACE AH!
I cannot find her! HAHAHA!


Jolin Tsai

End of concert!
Zhou Chong Qing is hilarious!
Just like Wewe,HAHHAA!


I need my J4M. &...D


Saturday, April 18, 2009
无插电唱新歌
12:27 AM
无插电唱新歌!!!

This is funny! HAHAH!
No offence,but looks like Wen Chong 老师 is kneeling to Daryl or something.

VS4 在练习!

Daryl's ELECTRIC GUITAR!


GROUP B!
SMUDGEBABIES!

OUR TURN!
We were the second group to perform.

Thank you Jian Hao for these 2 pictures!

Our teachers for 无插电!

:) He didn't stay to JUDGE VS4, 5 & 6 :(

I'd say our performance went pretty smoothly! Thank you GOD!
Knw what? Jt blanked out for the starting of our song but she just played anyway! & it sounded fine.


BYE!


Friday, April 17, 2009
PRACTICES.
11:57 PM
SATURDAY

Failed shot of my 10sec timer!

Heh :D



Retarded.

A familiar alley for J4M's camwhoring pleasure :DDD

SUNDAY


CSS Finals with Julia! :)
Only she made it and went with me :) Thank you!

& QUEENIE! Being the overall winner is nothing for CSS. All they have is another small boy.


Friday, April 10, 2009
Recording
8:35 PM
Yesterday for 非常歌手 lesson,we went into the RECORDING STUDIO!!!

He's our 老师 for the day! Hmm,Zennon 老师? I saw he's name in JJ's album!

Does this look familiar?
......Cause its in JJ'S BLOG!!!
http://www.jjfusion.com/

I wonder who's are these FURRY SLIPPERS! Haha,cute.
Anyways,we got to experience what's it like to actually go into a recording studio and record songs! Okay, actually just a few sentence but whatever! Nobody wants to hear my horrible voice anyways.HAHA.


Yay,I look like shit.

Everybody meet 小DAR our 班长! HAHAH! Hmph,he was more gay the other day with he's dangling earring man!

They sang 小酒窝 together!

Janice,Jt and I were the last 3 to go in.
Jt was up first! 一千年以后!


While Jt was recording!

Then meeee! I sang 会有那么一天.
When I started singing,it sounded reaaally weird cause for the first time Im actually listening to my own voice while singing.
Maybe that was why I totally changed key for the first few words. BAH! Then it got better...then worse then whatever.Hah.


Then Janice. She sang 莎 比亚的天分.

Then head for guitar!
EXAM!