STAGE

D

2011-04-29T01:04:00.001+08:00

I think I miss you.

I want to walk but I run back to you

2011-04-28T02:49:00.001+08:00

Maybe, I need a thousand word essay from you to have that assurance I crave for. I think, most of what Im doing is just really out of spite. Sigh why do I have such little faith? In the end it doesn't matter how other people think, because only your thought matters.
It is so much easier to believe people who don't love you than people who do, because you know for certain people who don't love you wouldn't lie.
I wish to buy confidence. That $25 dollar deal just wasn't enough.

Curiosity killed the cat,
I wish I never knew.

Nobody's home

2011-04-20T11:49:00.001+08:00

I feel so empty.

2011-02-21T01:51:00.001+08:00

My life shouldn't be mine to waste. I wish God would give it to somebody more deserving.

Monotony

2010-10-11T02:40:00.004+08:00

Talking to my Sister who is in Israel.

Longer of a conversation then we have on a normal day basis.

I miss her

Just thinking, how after a few months of monotony , there's really nothing to live for. I really want to just travel to a country (or a few) stay there explore a bit. I mean c'mon, a country in just 3 days? I could do & see so much.

I probably should sleep soon.

London bridge is falling

2010-09-21T01:39:00.004+08:00

Its 1am.

My sister should be on the plane, to London

Oh how I yearn to be the one to go on an adventure, of course with my man.

Then again, I haven't conquered my own country

Feeling rather pathetic.

Everything's becoming monotonous & uninspiring.

At least, there's this sparkle in my life

I hope it shines forever

The Beatles

2010-08-12T01:32:00.003+08:00

Here come old flattop he come grooving up slowly
He got joo-joo eyeball he one holy roller
He got hair down to his knee
Got to be a joker he just do what he please

He wear no shoeshine he got toe-jam football
He got monkey finger he shoot coca-cola
He say "I know you, you know me"
One thing I can tell you is you got to be free
Come together right now over me

He bag production he got walrus gumboot
He got Ono sideboard he one spinal cracker
He got feet down below his knee
Hold you in his armchair you can feel his disease
Come together right now over me

He roller-coaster he got early warning
He got muddy water he one mojo filter
He say "One and one and one is three"
Got to be good-looking 'cause he's so hard to see
Come together right now over me

This is Level 1.

Bangkok

2010-07-17T04:42:00.003+08:00

First time travelling without my parents.

Rock ★

2010-07-16T03:20:00.001+08:00

This is Lasalle

2010-07-16T03:04:00.005+08:00

My Programme Leader sent me an email on students we need for Performing Arts Foundation AY10/11!

My Existence

2010-06-16T03:35:00.003+08:00

I exist

because the World needs some space to occupy.

Im here

to let people hurt me

laugh

2010-06-13T05:00:00.009+08:00

Look in the mirror and fix yourself up. Wash away those tears. Be strong, suck it up. No one else knows. Paint on a smile and walk away. You’re okay, you should be, that’s what they all see.

19th

2010-06-12T05:11:00.002+08:00

Its 5am.

I don't think I actually tried hard enough to sleep, too many thoughts.

Lets see, my 18th Birthday wasn't about me turning 18th.

Cynthia and Daryl did.

Thank you

Hope I don't drive more people away

Time for Miracles

2010-05-25T01:12:00.000+08:00

Living is so hard to do.

Im a Cancer

2010-05-13T22:18:00.002+08:00

Saw a little horoscope stuff.

Many people prey on #Cancers because they are Really emotional.

WHAT. THE. HELL

Does that mean BECAUSE Cancers are more emotional, people should go insult/hurt them???

Im just a girl

2010-05-13T21:06:00.001+08:00

Bachelor Girl

I might be a little, concerned with my hair

I might need comfort, more than my share
I might seem to follow fashion, but claim that I don't care
My heart is your best friend, when it rules my head

I might want to talk alot, but don't ask me why
And I'll get impatient, if you don't reply
I might always search for something wrong, I want you to deny
And if you love me just stay close, and hold me when i cry

Don't try to understand me, I'm just a girl
One of the greatest mysteries, you'll find in this world
I'm not hard to handle, I'm just a girl
I'm just a girl

I don't seek money, but I want your time
Cos I'd give my life for you, when you are mine
And it hurts me more than I can say when you pull away
But if you love me, you should tell me everyday

Don't try to understand me, I'm just a girl
One of the greatest mysteries, you'll find in this world
I'm not hard to handle, I'm just a girl

I'm just a girl (x4)

You might think I'm too demanding
But you're just not understanding, no

I might like to take advice, but go my own way
And it's when I hurt the most, I swear I'm okay
And it's always when you least expect, I say I want to stay
it might take just a single kiss to steal my heart away.

Don't try to understand me, I'm just a girl
One of the greatest mysteries, you'll find in this world
You think I'm an x file, I'm just a girl
I'm just a girl

Don't try to understand me, I'm just a girl
One of the greatest mysteries, you'll find in this world
I'm not hard to handle, I'm just a girl

I'm just a girl

Please hold the line, hold your tears

2010-04-24T16:13:00.002+08:00

Im being put on hold.

For a few weeks

For your GPA.

Forever

I wish

2010-04-16T23:22:00.000+08:00

"I believe in pink. I believe that laughing is the best calorie burner. I believe in kissing, kissing a lot. I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong. I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls. I believe that tomorrow is another day and I believe in miracles."Audrey Hepburn

Im the laughing stock

2010-04-04T02:38:00.003+08:00

No matter how many girls or whatever who are bigger sized than me, I.am.always.the.one.being.insulted.at

I need to pray :(

WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY

I wonder if all those insults resulted in me being how I am today.

Yes,I suppose so.

Once a fat girl, always a fat girl

I am ALWAYS the laughing stock.

& here I am TRYING to lose the weight, lose the insults lose those tears, but it never seems enough. I think I've reached a point where if I don't do more, nothing is gonna change. Change of diet now I suppose.

Is this ALL God's plan to make me a stronger person?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

Bye.

Younger years

2010-04-03T01:58:00.004+08:00

Reading my old blog posts.

Best decision ever, BRACES!

Its funny how when you read your old blog posts, it feels like you're another person altogether. & you see how you grow.

Remember about skipping school. I can't believe that I actually said "What did we actually do wrong" to some big head guy from work. Yeah, think I remembering being pretty effed up bout it. I still miss working there.

I want to be able to buy the things I see then and there.

Sigh

Pathetic.

Where how when who

2010-03-31T22:20:00.000+08:00

“I can have hit records all day, but who fucking cares?” she explained. “A year from now, I could go away, and people might say, ‘Gosh, what ever happened to that girl who never wore pants?’ But how wonderfully memorable 30 years from now, when they say, ‘Do you remember Gaga and her bubbles?’ Because, for a minute, everybody in that room will forget every sad, painful thing in their lives, and they’ll just live in my bubble world.”

- Lady Gaga

I hate baseball

2010-03-29T01:30:00.004+08:00

Someday you might leave me dear boy

I know I wasn't on your eyes before and I know who was

Psst

I was really genuinely happy when you sang and played the guitar

& yes you cannot change what you thought before but why does it bother me so much

because no matter what, Im always always inferior to everybody.

Everybody

& I guess my happy days are shortlived

Oh, I kinda forgot how I sound like anymore. I want to sing, without any obstruction

I always thought how JJ events are always the days Im happy, till that day.

but with so many things going around the World suddenly I don't deserve to be sad at all.

I didn't lose my home, my things everything

Today is the 28th of March 2010

2010-03-29T01:23:00.003+08:00

I wanted to type today was like (the date that I cried like fuck) without the tears.

Then suddenly I did again cause I saw

Don't bother.

Back to basic

2010-03-20T01:13:00.004+08:00

Ass plus ass plus ass

Stupid desktop computer so screwed I ran out of patience to upload pictures, for now

Anybody has a Canon CD thingy so I can friggin' upload my pictures in my mac?

Yello Jello performance again, busy weekend. & its the one Sunday I could be entirely free. :(

Sad sad sad. Just saw somebody's tweet bout sleepovers. Waking up with the one person you love.

I can't do that.

Well, bye bye

13 MARCH 2010

2010-03-14T03:26:00.002+08:00

I don't know how to start this...hmm

but

the point main would be, ME,JT AND JANICE PERFORMED WITH JJ ON THE BIG STAGE TODAY!!!!!!

SO SO SO SO AWESOME AND FUN & AMAZING I could do it forever.

I told myself that when I was rehearsing on the actual stage itself on friday & when I saw By2 rehearsing as well. It's like, we only get to this this once, rehearsing and all, they (By2) get to do this like who knows when?

Im still so so so so thankful and blessed by the Lord. :)

Goodnight World, its 335am & I have vocals tomorrow.

See KAREN!

Wonder if I can see you babes...

Pictures will be UPLOADED!

Perfect day.

2010-02-25T11:24:00.005+08:00

Nobody important is online.

Sigh

Im just sorta forced awake by a little coffee.

Cold and tired.

Have so many pictures to upload for D's birthday, can't seem to find my canon CD. But anyways, that day was pretty perfect. Had perfect strawberry blonde hair, felt all pretty and all, haha. And just this and the previous week's so bullshit.

Oh great, now Im hungry.

Anyways, finally completed bout 4 songs for performance project. Im really liking Pokerface and Sk8er boi :) Bandmates are annoying. Especially a particular some sort bossy person. Growls. But still, am glad that we actually have the discipline to practice every school day. Next week is project week! Supposedly, no school, just some make up classes, but performance project. BIG SIGH.

Wonder if I can pull off being the lead vocalist for once and perform...

Poker face

2010-02-16T13:52:00.001+08:00

I’ve always been famous, it is just that nobody knew

-Lady Gaga

My power, my pleasure, my pain

2010-02-09T16:21:00.002+08:00

Kiss From A Rose

There used to be a graying tower alone on the sea.
You became the light on the dark side of me.
Love remained a drug that's the high and not the pill.
But did you know,
That when it snows,
My eyes become large and
The light that you shine can be seen.

Baby,
I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the gray.
Ooh,
The more I get of you,
The stranger it feels, yeah.
And now that your rose is in bloom.
A light hits the gloom on the gray.
There is so much a man can tell you,
So much he can say.
You remain,
My power, my pleasure, my pain, baby
To me you're like a growing addiction that I can't deny.
Won't you tell me is that healthy, baby?
But did you know,
That when it snows,
My eyes become large and the light that you shine can be seen.

Baby,
I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the gray.
Ooh, the more I get of you
The stranger it feels, yeah
Now that your rose is in bloom.
A light hits the gloom on the gray,
I've been kissed by a rose on the gray,
I've been kissed by a rose
I've been kissed by a rose on the gray,
...And if I should fall along the way
I've been kissed by a rose
...been kissed by a rose on the gray.
There is so much a man can tell you,
So much he can say.
You remain
My power, my pleasure, my pain.
To me you're like a growing addiction that I can't deny, yeah
Won't you tell me is that healthy, baby.
But did you know,
That when it snows,
My eyes become large and the light that you shine can be seen.

Baby,
I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the gray.
Ooh, the more I get of you
The stranger it feels, yeah
Now that your rose is in bloom,
A light hits the gloom on the gray.
Yes I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the gray
Ooh, the more I get of you
The stranger it feels, yeah
And now that your rose is in bloom
A light hits the gloom on the gray
Now that your rose is in bloom,
A light hits the gloom on the gray.

THE weekend.

2010-02-09T00:59:00.004+08:00

Awesome, amazing, wonderful, sweet, short, expensive, pretty, teary, interesting, new, full of love, happy weekend.

Don't cry baby.

2010-02-01T12:14:00.011+08:00

Yesterday...woke up early to go for service!

Different cause we had Pastor Nico from Indonesia to preach! We should dance like this all the time. Haha! :D What's really retarded is my sleepiness. Every time they start singing randomly I'll be alert and sing with em, then go back being sleepy, same goes to clapping. Can't believe Jan noticed it.

Was disappointed cause I didn't dye my hair yesterday. Wonder if I should still go back to Bedok cause of the distance. What was worse was during and after service was this stupid sharp stomache-y pain I have. So, was feeling all that Jazz till I met Deee! ❤

Side note: Im feeling hungry. Don't really feel like eating though.

The weekend is gonna be amazingly AWESOME.

FAITH. HAVE FAITH. FAITH. HAVE FAITH.

Feel like its my birthday instead baby. Think my 18th Hotel thing wasn't so BAM cause of a lot of factors. Sigh. Sometimes its best to just think and give yourself a lil' more. Especially when its YOUR birthday. F

Shall go look for more dresses!

& I'd give up forever to touch you.

2010-01-25T17:59:00.005+08:00

Practicing for performance project.

Doing Island in the Sun & Iris!

Yesterday was AWESOME~

Even if it was just going to D's house :D

A ton of minor stuff that I've forgotten, oops.

But being serenaded is ❤

& his momma joked with mee!

School is fine. Some sort.

I NEED A MICROPHONE!

Shit, did bubble tea make my throat choke-y?

BAAD!

Iris is soo beautiful.

Too bad I can't seem to sing it...

SIA

2010-01-15T01:30:00.002+08:00

Swimming 30 laps now is so not satisfying.
I like to feel like I did more and push the usuals that I do.

Anyhoo, Design and Technology in the Arts is...so move-y. I don't like stuff that is NOWHERE really. Like you either move a lot like Hip-hop (which was pretty good) or you don't move at all like History. Like retarded games or some sort. But yesterday was just to form shapes that represent performing spaces??? Oops.

Anws, yesterday Lliling asked me if I wanna change main study cause she is asking 雪玲 ( I think) to COME TO LASALLE TO TEACH MAIN STUDY! :OOO

(Over-dued post! )

Just a fraction maybe.

2010-01-12T00:43:00.000+08:00

I wish you'd write me something.

i Hate You.

2010-01-11T22:11:00.004+08:00

You're a bastard.

If not for you providing for the family I'd wish you weren't here at all.

How the fuck can you destroy my mother's plants WHEN SHE TOOK SUCH GREAT CARE FOR IT YOU ?!@#$%^&*.

What BULLSHIT, you and your superstitions.

You invited you and your DISGUSTING friends over to have some GARDEN PARTY AND EVEN BROKE THE WATER PIPE.

Fuck, you know how hard she works and you made a BIG MUTHAFUCKIN MESS.

I KNOW I have half brothers.

Why'd you marry him?

I HATE YOU FATHER.

Bullshit.

2010-01-11T19:08:00.006+08:00

Makes me feel like living back when I was doing my O's and doing it again.
Although Im already in my dream school. This is weird.

Course Karen got great results, she deserved it.

School started today.
LADY GAGA!
While discussing songs for performance project, was called 'Singer' a ton of times. I mean, am I really a singer? Maybe just cause that's my role. But otherwise...naah. Am at OB now. I feel really retarded now. Its like I have NO business here and I feel really...out. Last friday was great when I was at OB though, had Jt, talked to people a bit. Janice ain't here, was pretty happy when I remembered she's suppose to have piano. Now she' probably swimming in her pool.

Waiting for dinner! Felt hungry all day at school, now the hunger is gone. Just like me and OB.

For some reason Im involved in Lasalle's open house. Playing GAMELAN! HAHA. Volunteered, what a retard, now gotta go school on friday AND Saturday. Morning...:( Supposedly no school on that day. Oh well, was thinking to just build up my resume, its really shitty. Somebody come watch? & we'll go hang l8er!

Excited for Jan's Birthday thingy. Her Sweet 16th! :) My lil' Jan is SIXTEEN! Jt's next,haha! Oh crap, feeling a little blind. Need new contacts.

Lost.

Universal Truths

2010-01-07T23:49:00.004+08:00

50 UNIVERSAL TRUTHS ABOUT WOMEN

1. Saying "I love you" immediately before, during, or following sex doesn't count.

2. Real men drive stick shift.

3. I will leave if you lie.

4. You are cute in raglan-sleeved T-shirts (two-toned baseball undershirts).

5. I'm convinced I'm pregnant and obsess about it for a minimum of 24 to 48 hours before my period, even when I have no rational reason to think so.

6. I love it when you hug me from behind and whisper in my ear.

7. "Fine" is never an appropriate response when I ask you how I look.

8. Most of the time when I fantasize, it's about you.

9. I'm terrified of becoming my mother, even though I admire her.

10. I get turned on simply seeing that I have an e-mail from you.

11. I expect you to call me.

12. Only rock stars are allowed to wear leather pants.

13. I'm scared of losing my independence.

14. I'm more forgiving of you than I really should be.

15. Oral sex is your get-out-of-the-doghouse-free card. Manolo Blahnik shoes also do the trick.

16. You did something bad. I seem cool with it. I'm not. (See directly above.)

17. If I'm not having sex with you, I'm...

(a) having a fat day.

(b) not feeling "connected" to you. Or

18. Shoes determine whether you're fashionable or not.

19. I own a Debbie Gibson CD, and I'm not afraid to use it.

20. When I compare my flabby tummy to a kangaroo pouch, say nothing.

21. A man I love plans the occasional fancy-schmancy dress-up date and impromptu weekend getaways, and he buys my favorite candy in advance when we're just going to the movies.

22. You look hot in hooded clothing items.

23. You should never tell me what to do.

24. If I slept over, you owe me breakfast.

25. My breasts love much licking and sucking.

26. If you ask me out directly, I will say yes.

27. I'm very impressed when you ask for my advice.

28. I'm unimpressed with a man who doesn't take the lead.

29. When in doubt, go with the shirt that matches your eye color.

30. I want to be Madonna.

31. Women get urinary-tract infections easily, so watch (and wash) your fingers.

32. I'm in heaven when you hold my hand.

33. You're sexy when you're shaving, fixing things, wearing a white T-shirt and jeans, driving, eating a peach, holding a baby.

34. I need to hear how you feel about me. Often. Tell me now.

35. Surprises, especially gifts for moi = more loving.

36. I want to be the best thing that ever happened to you--and for you to recognize this.

37. If I'm not feeling loved, I will start looking....

38. Discussion of ex-gf's and ex-bf's should be avoided at all times.

39. I like it when you tell me what you're thinking, even if you don't know yourself.

40. Celebrating our anniversary, even if it's only been a few months, earns major bonus points.

41. I love it when you're sweaty.

42. It's best to consult your gal pals for gift ideas.

43. A lady should always be greeted with kisses.

44. I like porn.

45. I love holding your bum in the palms of my hands.

46. Even nice girls like hushed dirty talk in public.

47. It's cheating as soon as you're doing something with her that you wouldn't want me to see, hear, read...

48. For the record: I'd rather you break up with me than cheat.

49. I remember everything about our relationship.

50. You should know all this and more with-out my telling you.

50 UNIVERSAL TRUTHS ABOUT MEN

by Bob Grant, L.P.C.

1. Why should I remind you that "I love you?" I already told you once.

2. I'll do anything for sex; even commit to you for life.

3. I hate arguing with you. I'd much rather find a compromise.

4. I love long hair. Sorry, but I do. (HAHA! I bet Daryl freaked in his own head when I told him I cut my hair. He'll probably be thinking "AHH! Why'd you cut your hair AGAIN? Its already so short. I'll be dating a boy :O)

5. When you speak softly, I can't help but listen.

6. I need to be told "no" sometimes. Not a lot, but every now and again reminds me that you are expensive.

7. Please don't ask me how you look unless you're willing to trust my answer.

8. My eyes notice other women a lot more when you are upset with me.

9. When you're happy with me I can't help but want to please you.

10. If I don't feel I can make you happy, it makes me feel less than a man.

11. I expect you to be ready when I pick you up.

12. Cigarettes make any woman look cheap and easy.

13. I'm scared if I let a woman inside my heart, she'll take advantage of me.

14. If you can't stand up to me when I'm a brat, you're too weak for me to open up to when I'm upset.

15. Sitting quietly next to me after you've made me a meal is your get-out-of-the-doghouse-free ticket. You'll be surprised how quickly I can forgive.

16. You did something hurtful. If I never bring it up, I'm considering leaving you.

17. I don't read minds. Remember, I'm not a girl.

18. You may know fashion, but I wish you'd dress to please me, not other women.

19. If I'm losing my hair, it's not funny. Would you like me to joke about your weight?

20. When I talk to you about golf and you act bored, it would be nice for you to remember all the times I listened to you talk about what is important to you.

21. The woman I love is easy to please. She appreciates the effort I put into making her happy, even if I get the details wrong.

22. You look hot in a dress.

23. I hate being told what to do when I don't ask for help. It makes me feel you're my mother.

24. If you sleep over, I might eventually marry you, but I'm less motivated.

25. During sex my ears are as sensitive to your words as your skin is to my touch.

26. I need some type of signal or cue to walk across the room and approach you. What if you're married!?

27. It makes me feel like you trust me when you ask for my advice.

28. It feels competitive when you insist on being in charge.

29. Being respected is more important to me that being loved.

30. I want every guy to envy me when we arrive as a couple. Please don't let yourself go.

31. When I'm upset I am very tone sensitive. How you say it is more important that what you say..

32. I hate it when you minimize/ignore my compliments. It makes me what to stop giving them.

33. I'm more insecure than you think. Why do you think I need your respect so much?

34. I don't always know how I feel. That's why I don't tell you.

35. I don't need you to do things for me. What I crave is being able to please you.

36. If I do one thing and say something contradictory - Go with my actions, that will always tell you what's in my heart.

37. I find myself wanting to please you when you simply smile at me without asking for something. (Like a favor).

38. I really don't want to hear about any of your ex-boyfriends, regardless of the point.

39. If I don't share what I'm thinking it's because I don't think you will listen without interrupting.

40. I don't like to argue and I don't like to guess what's wrong. Just tell me so I can fix it.

41. I love it when you put your hair in a pony tail. Yes, it's a Freudian thing.

42. Don't ask me, "Are you going to wear that?" when I'm already dressed.

43. A gentleman should always be respected by his lady in public, even if she is disagreeing with him.

44. If you don't believe you're pretty, you won't believe me when I tell you, no matter how many times I say it.

45. It isn't how much you weigh; it's that your body is proportionate which is so attractive.

46. Sometimes I have weird and strange thoughts. I don't take them seriously and I don't want to share them with you (or anyone).

47. Sometimes you really don't want to know what I'm thinking. See above.

48. If you cheat on me, it is nearly impossible for me to get over it.

49. I don't remember everything about our relationship and that doesn't mean I don't love you.

50. I need some time to myself to calm down when I'm upset so that I don't say something I will regret.

The Twelve Days of Christmas

2010-01-06T00:44:00.002+08:00

The Twelve Days of Christmas are the festive days beginning Christmas Day (25 December). This period is also known as Christmastide. The Twelfth Day of Christmas is 5 January^[1], with the celebrations of Christmas traditionally ending on Twelfth Night and is followed by the Feast of the Epiphany on 6 January. In some traditions the first day of Epiphany and the twelfth day of Christmas overlap.

Over the centuries, differing churches and sects of Christianity have changed the actual traditions, time frame and their interpretations. St. Stephen's Day (or Boxing Day), for example, is 26 December in the Western Church and 27 December in the Eastern Church. Boxing Day, the first weekday after Christmas, is observed as a legal holiday in parts of the Commonwealth of Nations and was traditionally marked by the giving of Christmas boxes to service workers (such as postal workers and trades people) in the United Kingdom; 28 December is Childermas or the Feast of the Innocents. Currently, the twelve days and nights are celebrated in widely varying ways around the world. For example, some give gifts only on Christmas Night, some only on Twelfth Night and some each of the twelve nights. are the festive days beginning Christmas Day (25 December). This period is also known as Christmastide. The Twelfth Day of Christmas is 5 January^[1], with the celebrations of Christmas traditionally ending on Twelfth Night and is followed by the Feast of the Epiphany on 6 January. In some traditions the first day of Epiphany and the twelfth day of Christmas overlap.

Source Wikipedia

The 12 Days of Christmas.

2010-01-05T22:51:00.007+08:00

On the FIRST day of Christmas my true love gave to me...A Sims 3 Expansion Pack!
On the SECOND day of Christmas my true love gave to me...JJ's Newest Album!
On the THIRD day of Christmas my true love gave to me...A Superman Pendant!
On the FOURTH day of Christmas my true love gave to me...A Cookie Monster Pouch!
On the FIFTH day of Christmas my true love gave to me...An Animal Prints Umbrella!
On the SIXTH day of Christmas my true love gave to me...An Organizer with my name on it!
On the SEVENTH day of Christmas my true love gave to me...A pair of Sunglasses!
On the EIGHTH day of Christmas my true love gave to me...A Heart-shaped Optical Mouse!
On the NINTH day of Christmas my true love gave to me...Herbal Essence Conditioner!
On the TENTH day of Christmas my true love gave to me...Four Pretty Ribbons!
On the ELEVENTH day of Christmas my true love gave to me...Purple Skullcandy Earphones!

On the TWELFTH day of Christmas my true love gave to me...AVRIL LAVIGNE BLACK STAR PARFUM!!!

& here are ALL the presents he gave me. Terribly spoilt me. ♥
I simply jokingly said" If you don't give me 12 presents then I can't sing the 'Twelve Days of Christmas' song :O :D

PS:I Love my presents very much and I Love yoo very much.

Christmas 2009

2009-12-29T15:35:00.010+08:00

Christmas Eve was spent at Service!

After service,things didn't go so well so I decided to look for JT! Totally lifted my mood. Thank Gof for friends who live nearby. What am I gonna do when I move?!
CHRISTMAS!

Went to Shu Jian's birthday/Christmas party.

Tour of house. Big~

They even have this string basket thingy cause there are 3 floors. Cute!

So music students as we are, two of them decided to play a little something something.

Dancer.

Flautist.

Birthday person!

Pressies!

He has a twin sister!?
After,left for D's house.

Dude selling old school ice-cream.

Wearing Ralph Lauren that baby got me! Whoo!

Look what I got for the FIRST day of Christmas! :O
Then we went to watch the all squeaky Chipmunks.

Went home feeling all happeh. :)

Back to younger years.

2009-12-29T14:38:00.007+08:00

2D'05 BBQ!

Grocery shopping.

& off to Sembawang Park!

Arrived!

Sandraa

Then the guys start their nonsense all over again :D

CHRISTMAS'09

2009-12-25T16:23:00.004+08:00

I wonder if everybody keeps or throws the things that I make for them.

Fine its not perfect, but it not only requires money you know. It has my LOVE (haha) in it. So, by throwing it away, you're kinda rejecting it? Whatever~

Its MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Jesus is born. :)

Gonna attend a friend's party with the LASALLE people l8er! YAYNESS!

First HOME XMAS PARTY! Yeah I know,retarded.

& after, something with dear D. :)

BYE! Hope the Lord's Birthday will bring you LOVE HOPE JOY FAITH & HAPPINESS!

God Bless.

xox

Don't tell me.

2009-12-23T01:53:00.010+08:00

You want to know what's going on with me. The :( , etc.

When I told you, you decided to change the topic

Because you see, you cannot do anything to help, thus of course you can't encourage either.

I realize this goes to my friends as well.

Thank you JT though, for that awful night. I think it was the first time I looked for help.

Don't tell me.

Going back to hiding everything.

Im actually a very weak person. & a crybaby.

Im ending the year with tears.

Ikea

2009-12-02T17:06:00.010+08:00

Super super long ago.

Liquorice!

Toys toys toys~

I waant!

Audrey Heburn!

Pretty dressers to get!

:O

Itchy hand :X

Ciao ciao! I love it when the sun sets. :)

Deck the halls

2009-12-01T00:45:00.004+08:00

Pray that Im not falling sick.

I feel...weird.

Maybe its just one of those days when I don't feel so...healthy/on the verge of becoming sick.

Today was fun. Simple but :) With my friends & love.

Connect group! :D

I feel more pressurized because Christmas is coming, initially excited but negativity is clouding it.

God.

My blog is very "closed" isn't it?

I don't know wth I am blogging about, Im so retarded.

Dream.

2009-11-25T18:07:00.004+08:00

I know why I love Sims so much

Cause its my version of a perfect World.

LOST | FOUND & Halloween

2009-11-01T14:56:00.011+08:00

Trying for LOST | FOUND mug shot!

TA-DAH!

Late rehearsals.

Randomly found near my school.

Don't ask me,I have noo idea what I am doing.

Outside people watching! Shows how cool the perf is,whoo. Hah

Meiqi did mye hair!

Day of first performance.

Hair & makeup. Yes,including guys.

Guy with makeup,hahaa

Second day of Performance, which is also Halloween!

& boom, the rain killed our performance :(

Keeping of equipments.

Wet

So we decided to walk a bit, since it was Halloween. Wanted to go Clark Quay, but Vicky lostt her phone,so back to school.

Technical Theater people!

Couldn't find her phone so everybody went home.
Me tooo, but not mine, D's home. HAHA.
Zach & Miaoru was there too, to practice for their Rubberband thing,haha. I kinda like that name. Then we went to eat supper,ehh,I didnt take pictures.

Then I was driven home! Yay.
Wl, I wanna learn driving, wtf.

Jesus Take the Wheel.

2009-10-15T17:13:00.002+08:00

Raise your hand for a math question, the teacher sees you, then look away to pick anybody else but you.
OB feels different.
Poor little poor girl.

I miss my vocal teacher, my spiritual teacher, my dance teachers

& boi. :(

Oh, and friends :)

I should get twitter eh?

Why?

2009-10-13T00:16:00.001+08:00

I've come to realize my biggest enemy has the softest heart.
Thank you

Vocal Bitch

2009-10-10T10:25:00.001+08:00

Who are you living for?

God's Miracle

2009-10-09T23:35:00.001+08:00

How did you get into Lasalle???

School is cool.

2009-10-05T13:46:00.005+08:00

Have a ton of stuff update. Too many pictures to upload & too little time.

Hah,think I just suck at time management

& pitching.

In school now. 3 hours break before next lesson, one hour more to go. MUG SHOT for LOST|FOUND[ation] later ;) Anyhoo last week was awesome,I sorta forgot why,hahaha.

But I remember Sunday :)

I want something new to make me happy. Materialistic happy :X

PS: I think this week is gonna be awesome too :)

I got 60/100 for my first review!

Hopefully.

Marvel at HIStory.

2009-09-26T22:06:00.037+08:00

HAHAHA,KIRK.

THE NATIONAL MUSEUM OF SINGAPORE!

& here's my bloody head. Hah.
Anyhoo, being students, we got in for F-REE. Now if only everything else is, heh.

This is awesome.
Headed to Singapore's PAST.

& so it this. You can't see it really, its a gotta be there kinda thing.
Here's a...stone.

This is what momma used to live in. HAHAHA.
Letters from the past! Nobody writes mailed letters anymore. :(

If only my tv is like this. Ooo.

& more stones...

Funeral~

Who needs cigarettes man,when I got hardcore stuff.

...here you have english snobs. :D

Some freaky headless thing man.
*Shudders*

Blur fuck.

Oooh~

WELCOME TO THE 60'S! (I think)

& then to PAST FASHIONS! :O

?!@#$% KAREN JUST TAUGHT ME HOW TO SO EASILY NOT HAVE TO DRAG MY GEZILLION PHOTOS TO THE BOTTOM.
ALL THE WASTED YEARS! WTFWTFWTF.
Nevermind,now I know. Muahahaha.

We killed the pictures. O.O

Nice~

PRINCESS CHAIR! I want one.
Pouts

I wonder if this is the most pictures that I've uploaded.
Anyhoo,this was quite some time ago,still have lotsa stuff to upload. Zzz...
School killed my Saturday. :(
WEDDING TOMORROW! :)

You are my ride home.

2009-09-15T11:55:00.001+08:00

My BOYFRIEND DROVE me back home on Sunday~!!!
:DDD

Like a Butterfly.

2009-09-13T01:34:00.002+08:00

I miss you friend
I miss the past

where did everybody go?

Play things.

2009-09-07T09:19:00.004+08:00

Hello!
I am like so high right now but I can't do anything cause I'm in the school library at this weird early hour.
Anws,I'm high because I AM GONNA GO TOY SHOPPING WITH JT.
WAHAHAHA! & Oh,was late,dude don't let me in for class so yeah. Basically I'm "forced to play truant".
Think I'm high cause I actually wanted to be late.Ugh,really hating iMac keyboard. On the way to school,I kept thinking how I'd be late,go home and SLEEP. Sheesh,stupid timetable. Bloody retarded. Make me end school so late when I have at least a 2 hour break. I even have PIANO during my breaks.

If only I was idle again. :( Free to do ANYTHING. Daryl is a dear,I got a TAMAGOTCHI! YAY. I feel like going back to primary school. With my nice blue Forever Friends bag my momma got for me,when I aced MATHS and got full marks for Chinese. I think one time I even got full marks for Maths. Ahh,Primary 1 and 2.HAHA.

I think I'll actually love school more if there weren't shit people,I end school earlier,and not have to go to school like almost everyday. But learning is fun,aural,theory,vocal,capoeira etc. Honestly,I don't really like performance project. Ughh. Wanna know a secret? I don't know what comes after Lasalle with a not so likable voice.
Sigh.

PS:Should have brought my History book so I can study now while waiting to meet Jt.
Now what?

The 29th.

2009-08-31T22:38:00.016+08:00

Started the day with my last dance lesson.
:D F to the U to the N.

She has humongous eyes!
*Envy envy*

Everybody go oooohh~

HAHAHA.
Oops.

The 'why are we still here look.'

'HALLELUJAH!

Birthday girl Birthday girl! Plus Cynthia. -.- Haha.

Heh :)

She thinks she so macho :D

My Familiarities. :)
I don't know why ever since school started I start missing people more. Maybe its cause I've come to realise how some people are SO shitty in school that all you wanna do is be with people who are super close to you.

Au Revoir!

Stab me.

2009-08-31T22:33:00.004+08:00

Like a broken CD it cannot be played.
I cannot be hurt

anymore.

What if you're dream came true,and it turned out to be a nightmare?

Courage dont' desert me

2009-08-25T20:24:00.005+08:00

If a stranger says I'm ugly, all my friends could tell me I'm pretty and I wouldn't believe them, because "they're just trying to be nice. It takes one honest person for you to be able to tell that your friends are just lying to be nice. Or they probably don't think so because they're so used to how you look already."

QUOTE Karen's blog.

Put to rest
What you Thought of Me
While I clean this Slate
With the Hands of Uncertainty

Mustn't let them see me cry.

2009-08-22T23:55:00.001+08:00

I don't need new friends.
I need a new life.

In another Dimension.

2009-08-19T23:07:00.002+08:00

I hereby declare I have no musical genes.

The bitch has spoken

2009-08-15T23:57:00.001+08:00

My sister can go screw herself.

Always and Never

2009-08-14T12:19:00.005+08:00

Another storm and it was over

I wish I could be strong.

I wish you people would just fuck off.

Your boyfriend overtook you.

2009-08-10T22:45:00.005+08:00

friend (frnd)

1. A person whom one knows, likes, and trusts.

2. A person whom one knows; an acquaintance.

3. A person with whom one is allied in a struggle or cause; a comrade.

4. One who supports, sympathizes with, or patronizes a group, cause, or movement: friends of the clean air movement.

5. Friend A member of the Society of Friends; a Quaker.

Are YOU my friend?

LASALLE.

2009-08-06T20:28:00.007+08:00

A whole week has passed.
I had YOGA for my 1st lesson!
Ooh.

SUMMARY!

Orientation.

Clarinet,the flute,drums etc etc.
People from everywhere.
Awesome.
Just please please cut short breaks times! I wanna go home early. :(
The longest is about 5 hours. Look for me! :D
Blu Jaz! :)

Yay. :D

I got where I want to be. You?

2009-08-03T00:13:00.003+08:00

First day of school in LASALLE.
Starts later.

:DDD

Why do I love you so much, you say

2009-07-25T01:48:00.005+08:00

This picture is amazing.

I feel HAPPY.
Hahaha.

Might get to perf or smth on CHRISTMAS!
On the first day of Christmas my true love gave to me...
HAHA.

Then I read a little smth from me friend. Yay.

Heh,and D never fails to make me :)
Cool.

My 18th.

2009-07-19T23:45:00.021+08:00

Im 18 18 18 18 18 18 18 18 18 18 18 18 18 18 18 18 18 18.

Greaaat Start cause D surprised me at 12AM!!!

Then headed over to Jt's house for Love Guru! Yay. My friend here is becoming stronger! :D
The next day woke up got ready,D picked me up to the FULLERTON! Heh,was kinda treated like a Princess cause I got my brother to carry my crap before D carried my crap. :X hahaha.

I actually went out and took this photo,and went back in again.
HAHAH.

Didn't get to explore much. Was kinda rushed. :(
Yay!

HAHAHA :D

After swimming,had a little fun,off to Georgina's 18th too! :D
18 Julys.

Look.at.her.cake.

Then back to ze Fullerton.

Glitzed,glam and ready to go! ;)
We left at 1AM. HAH.

Anna found her real man.
AHAHA!

FASHION BAR!

I am so not going to Zirca on a Saturday ever.
Wednesday!
HEHEHEH.

5/6 am?
ZzzZzz.

I want more pictures of Fullerton. :(
Damn it.

Okay,I can stop growing already~
Who's up for NEVERLAND? :)
I wanna watch Peterpan again!

Boys Boys Boys

2009-07-15T00:04:00.002+08:00

"When a guy opens the car door for his wife, either the car is new, or the wife is."

Cause Im the boss's daughter.

2009-07-14T18:50:00.003+08:00

Working now...
Tomorrow would be SHOPPING with dear Janice!
Sweeet~

Hope my Saturday would be awesome.
Fullerton Fullerton here I come!

HEH,then from that day I'll have more freedom to more places to go!
YAY.

Vocal lessons are back on! :D
Doesnt feel as familiar. Where are my homies? :(
But then again,really productive for last week's lesson. Cause with the 4 of us it goes out of topic. HAHAHA.

Im just really borred.
ZzzZz...

Friends Smiends.

2009-07-12T00:45:00.004+08:00

When they need you you're there

When you need them they are not

What a perfect little World.

Maybe I need new friends.

LASALLE.

My Discovery

2009-07-07T00:03:00.010+08:00

Effed up afternoon before going to Bistro.
?!@#$%

Xiaoxuan :)

Busy busy people.

D on the guitar! :)
Damn it,missed the song that he was singing.

I see FULLERTON!

Supreme Court!

Am that short.

Amazing architecture.

Interesting seats on this bus. :P

4th of July!

2009-07-06T23:35:00.005+08:00

Independence Day!
Brother and Cousin agreed to come for de-centralised service!
Yay.

Pretty Lights and pretty Carmen singing.
Went for Dance at OB after. Learning PURPLE LINE! Wahaha. So different. Realised the choreo I learned during VS was baby cakes.
Anyhoo,had a pleasant surprise as I went to the reception! :D
D was practicing with Geraldine. But whatever,that lasted only for like a while before he went to do his stuff.

Dang.Wonder if Im only good in this World for other people.
HAHA.

Denial.

2009-06-27T23:36:00.002+08:00

Michael Jackson.

I wake up one afternoon and suddenly Im told that he isn't here anymore.

Can you feel disturbed with someone's death with whom you didn't care about in the past? Whatever with his crazy antics which really doesn't amuse me given the crazy life of mega celebrities. Then why do I care now?

I don't believe and I cannot believe.

Is it because given his legendary title that it's more hyped? Like if Audrey Hepburn was still alive, and gone the next day. Wonder if I would feel anything.

BEAT IT.

Music to my ears.

2009-06-20T00:27:00.006+08:00

Onto a lighter note.

One & a half month to commencement.
In the meantime...
I SHALL PARTAY!

Im trying to squeeze fun. Heh.

Received reading list from LASALLE!

Required Reading

Bartlett, B. Practical Recording Techniques Boston: Focal Press 2002
White, Gary The Harmonic Dimension W.C. Brown 1991
Levine, M. The Jazz Theory Book Sher Music Co. 1996
Lyke, James, Elliston, Ron & Caramia, Tony Keyboard Musicianship 4th edition (Books 1 & 2) Stipes Publishing Company

& A TON of more books,recommended etc etc.
This is what I call studying MUSIC.
Well,beats doing math problems.
Time to hit the library!

Theatre seems fun.
High School Musical. Heh. Its like singing ,dancing acting all wrapped up into one. Wonder if I can dabble? Eh eh? ;)

I want EXTRA ACTIVITIES in SCHOOL!
Ugh,I doubt have though.

I was telling my mum how vocal lessons are like "tuition" for school. HAHAHA.
& she doesnt believe nor support me.
Whoopee.
Nice to know your parents are your worse supporters huh.
Thank God for a great brother! A screamo brother :D
I don't even know how my sister thinks.
Stranger in the house.

ASK ME OUT FOR FUN! :D

WORLD.

2009-06-20T00:20:00.002+08:00

Its just a matter of time before the World comes crashing down on us.

Feels like home.

2009-06-14T23:51:00.007+08:00

PERFORMANCE WITH MY HOMMIES!!!

Avril Lavigne vomited pink on us.
HAHAHA!

Soundcheck!

Carmen sweetie!
Heh,anywhere can be transformed into a girls bathroom ;)

My supposedly RED extentions faded to HOTPINK in just a few days.
Well,It was good for performance,but not good otherwise.I mean,very soon it'll fade into white. URGH. Last time's extention lasted pretty long though.
But me likey me hair. :D

Spray spray spray

Went onstage, rehearsals for celebrity weekend too noisy for Acapella,went down. Zzz.
After a bit,went up again.
I kinda thought it was pretty screwed cause all of a sudden I wasn't confident in some parts. Uh-huh.
Damn funny,for OB In house we look like crap, in front of an public audience and for this small performance we look NICE! :D
HAHAHA!
Went crazy shopping for Karen and Jt, AND JANICE. I only had to buy my Tutu. Which was optional. Heh. Im crazy for pink!

2 Pictures credit to Alan.

Zhang Si-er! JJ's lyricist.

Tay Ke Wei! Backup vocals for David Tao,JJ,Wang Lee Hom!
OOOOH.

Estella Sia!

Carmen!
Close to you~

Everybody!
Wl,Janice and Karen kill joy. Don't wanna go up with me. Sheesh.
Celebrity Weekend!
Coolness.
My Church is COOL!
While VS people were listening to Liu Geng Hong and Vivi,I heard two girls screaming: AH QING!
HAHA! He just stood at the door,stunned or something. & There's Vanness Wu and course F.I.R, etc etc.

After,had a bus just for us VS to the flyer! Celebrated Alex and Fiona's 18th & 21 at Love the World Cafe. Met new people!
Gwyn found a VS dude going to LASALLE too. AHHH! SO COOL RIGHT. I didn't think anybody I know would go there.
YAY!

Very Singer EXAM.

2009-06-14T23:35:00.005+08:00

Being not confident results in a bad performance.
Yeah
Crap.
:(

JANICE!

Leaving on a Jet plane

2009-06-14T15:48:00.007+08:00

Pictures a thousand years ago.
Terence's Birthday!

ANNA!

DNS!

Birthday dude

WHEETS! :)

The Train goes CHOO-CHOO.

2009-06-08T23:10:00.005+08:00

Everybody has their own commitments.
We even have trouble meeting up, where's the time to improve??
The only time or reason we get together to practice is because we have an audition, a performance. Like now.

Instead of saying about how we don't improve,we're doing the same thing etc, why didn't you bring the topic up?
In my opinion I know we ARE trying to improve, trying to come up with something new,but we have our limits.
We're not super multi-talented. At least not me,that's for effing sure.

If me/we are not confident of doing something of course we would rather NOT do it. Or instead just give it a go and embarrass myself/yourself?

You're not being realistic, you going way below that.

OB In-house Concert.
That was our what?
FIRST performance ever,you expect it to be great?

Where did the lazy word come from? I don't get it. Did we blow off practices? We may slack around or our emotions got the better of us while practicing, but really, what caused it?

Why am I asking so many questions?
Fuck.

I need somebody who is NOT in Singapore right now.
Double Fuck.

XOXO

2009-05-31T16:17:00.002+08:00

I love my NUM
& my boy.

Daughter for SALE.

2009-05-29T00:45:00.005+08:00

What I have with me are the most clueless parents.

I don't see why they have to make things difficult for me with the whole PAYMENT MODE for my school fees.

My school fees are just 4500 whereas my sisters is 10000,and instead of her using my parents CPF, I HAVE to.

Plus all the crap of applying an Education scheme BLAH BLAH BLAH.How am I suppose to do all these when my mother doesn't even know her SINGPASS etc etc.

Like HELLO?
WHO ARE THE ADULTS HERE?

Thank God for an ADULT BOYFRIEND.

I wanna cry man.
Aren't your parents suppose to provide for you?
Got like 2 cars and you won't even give me cash for my necessities.

DAUGHTER FOR SALE~
Warning
I'm havoc.

Would you make me number one on your playlist?

2009-05-27T14:51:00.003+08:00

Im so diggin Lady GaGa now.

Awesome dance tracks!

On to GREATER things!

2009-05-27T13:29:00.005+08:00

I. GOT. INTO. LASALLE!!!!!!
Till now I still can't digest the fact that I am in LASALLE!
Pinch me Im dreaming.

I think,since Sec 3,all I could think of was how Secondary school sucks big time, & I just wanted to do my O's and quickly get into Lasalle, or the Singapore American School. Yeah,If I was THAT rich.

No more idling around and complaining I have no life cause on the 3 August I'll be going to SCHOOL!
& STUDY MUSIC!
Can you believe? 3 years of studying sweet sweet MUSIC,and not maths and science and BLAH BLAH BLAH. Even doing history of music might be interesting. HEH. MOZART. HAHAHA!

I have a strange tendency to get high when Im happy.
Cool.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

I still can't believe it.

Anyways,D has been a GREAT help!
THANK YOU!
xoxo

Heh,I've got an awesome boyf, a great school to look forward to,now to conquer my EXAM SONG!
Chun choreographed up something. Im bad with foot work. BLEAH.
Thanks a bunch too!

Oh J4M prayed for me :) I could actually feel their prayers for that moment.
& they're HAPPY FOR ME!
Karen's actually really happy for me! Like how I told her bout D the other time.
It makes me feel happy that they're HAPPY for me! Haha!

After a ton of disappointments,this is awesome.
The one reason I thought how I could not get into Poly was cause God has something else planned for me.
LASALLE! WHOOHOO!

Life couldn't get any better than this.

The Ritz-Carlton

2009-05-24T18:25:00.013+08:00

The Ritz-Carlton BABY!

BUT first, DANCE.
We're learning a new Jazz number. Cause according to Chun, we usually do a lot of ' BOOM,PA BOOM PA.' So gotta mellow it ya know? Haha.

Door to paradise. Room 2206.

Whoo,Marina Bay! Full view of the Floating Platform. Getting ready for National Day?

Awesome toilet!

After cam whoring, its off to...

the POOL!

Dead Corpse.

Yeah.

Walked by the gym to another AWESOME TOILET! HAHA! What's with me and toilets,hmmm. Sauna & Steam!

Ooh,Artsy.

DINNER!
Shoot,he's eating like a girl now man. I think even I eat more than him.Hmph.

After dinner 3 people wandered around aimlessly in the hotel till we saw the flyer! Remember 老师 performing at the Love the World Bar so decided to head there to try my luck.
Stood outside for a bit till I saw Jason and 老师 coming out. Stayed for a song,then went to the Esplanade area! There were so many couples there that when I saw one and said it out that they were kissing,my brother immediately took out his spectacles to watch a free show. HAHA! Im like WTH? He's a joker yet he is some cool shits. :D

Wheeeee~

Makan Sutra at 4am! Only a small stretch?
On the way back to the Ritz,saw a bunch of people. Freak accident? No. Drunk? Maybe. Cynthia wanted to sit outside Mandarin Oriental to watch. Stayed for a bit,scene got cleared. I was waiting for an ambulance or some sort. Oh wells. Thank God nothing major seemed to happened. We kept stopping at random places to sit & cam whore. Hah :D
Back to the hotel!

Cynthia gets along with anybody! Cool.

4AM BATH!
Soaking is awesome with an amazing view! I so wanted to sleep. Soaked & showered till 6am? Then opened the fridge to...

wonderment!

HAHAHA!

MOET!

7AM!

She wants to sleep. Heh.
Since there were only 2 beds. My bro,sis and mom slept in it while my father slept on the sofa. We...watch Korean and Japanese television! It was all about food, food & more food.

Bye NICE TOILET!

Bye RITZ!

Home Sweet Home at 8.

Kickin' it old school.

2009-05-23T02:38:00.004+08:00

Feeling down under the weather lately.
& its getting worse :(
Too much late nights and one early morning.

I .need. more. time

I'm actually the biggest contributor to why :D's so happy.
AHH!
AMAZING.
I wanna scream in your face! :D

My mother KNOWS KNOWS KNOWS!
& she can even joke about it.COOL!
Ugh,duh. He'd rather have him as her child.

I have dance tomorrow. Yayness!
Shoot,I'm suppose to be resting,but but,resting is boring. I don't feel that bad enough to sleep all day.
After dance,its off to the RITZ-CARLTON!
Great,PLENTY of time to relax,get myself rejuvenated and panic over what exam song to do.I hate myself.
Damn! Only one room.

This post is a load of crap :)
I bet nobody understands a word I just typed.

WLWLWLWLWL.
SIS coming back home tomorrow.
WTF.
Bye bye internet freedom.

ABCD

2009-05-19T23:30:00.006+08:00

Another butt insulted.
HAHAH!

__________________________________________________________________

SLEEPOVER AT KARENS!
& to celebrate the two's BIRTHDAY!

Cam whore in the middle of the night. X)

The next day to WILD WILD WET!
Before.

After.

Im a white white chicken.

WILD WILD WET!
First time there. Am such a 井底之蛙. Realize I haven't been to many restaurants/places cause of my restrictions. Thank you :D
GOD is good :)

I can just stare at one of these horse merry go round thingies. I feel happy :)

Nobody's Home.

2009-05-19T03:43:00.003+08:00

非常歌手 is ending.

I really feel that the course is really short and that I actually haven't learn all that there is to it. Everything is a crash course. Just 3 Vocal, 2 dance lesson etc etc. Even if there are extra classes and Im already learning vocal & dance,but still...

I feel as though time is quickly being taken away from me.
Why do I always procrastinate???

Audition in 2 days time.
Exam 7 June.

OH MAN.
I want to dance for exam but what songs to?
Choreography???

Im losing my motivation :(

Ice scream Sundae.

2009-05-18T01:58:00.006+08:00

My perfect image of an Ice cream Sundae is ruined in seconds.
HAHAHA!
THANK YOU ALAN!
Appreciate your effort in actually drawing it for me :)

Grandfather.

2009-05-17T00:36:00.001+08:00

Avril Lavigne
Slipped Away

Na na
Na na na na na

I miss you
Miss you so bad
I don't forget you
Oh it's so sad.

I hope you can hear me
I remember it clearly.

The day you slipped away
Was the day I found
It, won't be the same
Oh

Na na
Na na na na na

I didn't get around to kiss you
Goodbye on the hand
I wish that I could see you again
I know that I can't
I hope you can hear me
Cause I remember it clearly

The day you slipped away
Was the day i found
It, won't be the same
Oh

I've had my wake up
Won't you wake up
I keep asking why.
And I can't take it
It wasn't fake it
It happened you passed by

Now you're gone
Now you're gone
There you go
There you go
Somewhere I can't bring you back
Now you're gone
Now you're gone
There you go
There you go
Somewhere you're not coming back

Na na
Na na na na na

I miss you.

Parents for sale.

2009-05-16T23:55:00.005+08:00

I want to trade my parents.

NOW NOW NOW.

Cause they suck they suck they suck suck suck.

I hope something major would happen to me to make them realize.
Maybe I should faint.
:(

And none of you are in ANY position to ask.

I KNOW I AM ADOPTED.

Scary Momma.

2009-05-14T00:03:00.005+08:00

My mother is sca-ry.

She knows about stuff that I try to hide.
The more I hide the more she knows
& man, is she sarcastic and RUDE.

I wonder if I should tell.
Telling something sorta big to somebody you love yet not close to.
?

I realise SUNDAE is a proud, arrogant,little POOPY!
He couldn't give a shit with my neighbour's husky. Nor does he care about anybody when he's marking he's territory in every tree. HAHA!

Sundae LOVE.

The World is my PLAYGROUND.

2009-05-12T01:01:00.007+08:00

Studio A is where we PLAY!
WOOTS.

I don't like you.

2009-05-06T19:18:00.005+08:00

For a moment I thought how my sister going to China for one month is pretty long.
But just whatever that comes out from her mouth makes me think,know what? Whatever
Stay there.

ENDLESS COMPUTER USAGE BABY!
For a little while I don't have to listen to your crap while I talk to my mother or whoever that matters.

She don't like me I don't like her.
How perfect.

My sister reminds me of somebody.

You know how when you change an opinion about someone, he/she goes back to who he/she is and yeah,you go back disliking em.

I don't see how you have to like your family members? But yeah course you love them.
BYE BYE!

PS:I might have 2 stepbrothers.
Don't ask.

Strip Tease

2009-05-06T12:52:00.004+08:00

Cynthia came down to OB yesterday to practice dance! Short but FUN!
& just last week I realised CHUN is in the same church as MEEEEE! WHOO! I kinda like her better now. Hmmm

I wonder how does 'AURAS' look like. Cause I can't tell.
& apparently the whole world knows.
Again...HMMMM.

YAY.
Buh-bye.

No more running wild.

2009-05-05T13:34:00.008+08:00

Amongst all that is happening now.
At least one good thing happened :D

& Oh,I talk more to Karen now. Even though we don't meet up,technology is there! Thats kinda another good thing isn't it? But for the wrong reasons we're being closer. Sigh.

&& I found out stuff that I should've known earlier. But whatever,haha. No biggie. Its quite funny really,HAHAHAHA!

Anws,Sunday was a lot of fun.
Vicky, Alan & I went Daryl's house to do recordings!
He's got a condenser Mic!

Vicky was like pretending to be a YES9.33 radio DJ, & Alan played various listeners calling in. All stalkers. One part he went" 号码自号？9...?9...?" Vicky just went " 来下一位" & went on to the 'next caller' HAHAHAH! I was laughing like hell.

Both of them were really fun,Alan played a DJ too,HAHAHA. While they were recording I went to read porn...HAHAHA! Yeah right.
Tsk tsk.

Oh well,and Monday I went Lasalle!
I have to skip 3 Grades in less than a month! Thank goodness for friends with higher Grades. Haha.
I suck.

& I realised the audition date is when I have PIANO! AHH!
Wonder if I can reschedule.

My Opinions are Silenced.

2009-05-02T00:34:00.007+08:00

3 boring people at STUDIO A.
Singing ELEVATE
Dancing PURPLELINE
etc etc.
:D

GAY.

Even more GAY.

Mars VS Venus

2009-04-26T19:09:00.003+08:00

I wonder if a guy flirts with so many girls is cause he wants em to like him.
To feel popular?

But at the same the guy likes this girl and flirts with her too.
Whats all this about?

& I wonder if anybody will actually reply to this.
Karen might ;)

Been thinking/feeling ALOT ALOT of emotions lately.
I can think about what horrible shit that has just happened and be happy later on because ANOTHER thing has happened.And in the end,all these emotions = CONFUSED.

Alot of stuff has been piling up :(
& none are actually solved.

I can do better.

2009-04-26T00:10:00.004+08:00

You don't know how much you've hurt me.
Or the others.

Have you thought that you trying to give * a shoulder to lean on would somehow hurt the rest?
It shows how bootless, dysfunctional, idle, inept I am.

I don't really respect you as much anymore.

Karen's.

2009-04-24T14:46:00.002+08:00

KAREN'S
blog.

Reality.

To JJ:
But we don't like it when you become someone you're not. We love you for who you are.

I hate lying, I hate being someone I'm not, I hate it when people think I'm someone I'm not.
But to be a singer, that's what you have to do. You have to put on a fake front, be somebody you're not, so that people will like you.
It's disgusting to be fake to get people's attention. But that's what you have to do.
When Rainie Yang said she was actually a tomboy and not the sweet cute girl she portrays at all, a lot of fans were shocked.
Tomboy singers need to become more feminine. Olinda was made to wear a skirt. And look at how much Ella has changed.
In order to be a singer, a public figure, you have to be who people want you to be, you can't be yourself.

Let's say you were a singer, and you hate cute things, but your company wants you to be someone cute. You can't express your own opinions on blogs etc, becuase the media would say you're just trying to be someone you're not to get attention (which is always true). You can't tell anyone about how you feel. You have to lie to your fans that you love Hello Kitty and you think vulgarities are scary. Nobody will know how you really feel inside. When you're a public figure, the public owns you. Your opinion has to be hidden and unheard.

I'm someone who takes criticism very hard, because I believe that people usually say nice things they don't mean, so when they say something that isn't nice, they mean it and feel very strongly about it. Which means the problem is quite serious already.
Because of my pessimism, I get quite affected by criticism.
Celebrities/singers get negative remarks all the time. Some can be super hurting. I read some of the comments about SC Squared during Crezawards and they were really painful; I'd have died if I were Sherm/Nadine/Shuzhen.
But that's reality. You can't make everyone happy, and some people will hate you, and not everyone is nice and polite. But if you're vulnerable to criticism, you wouldn't be able to survive in an industry like this.

Guess what. Maybe not achieving my dream isn't such a bad thing after all. (: It's best to be a nobody.

SOS

2009-04-24T14:28:00.005+08:00

I wanna get off the LJ boat.

It may be experienced but...
I don't like being told what to do.

I have enough of that in Secondary school.

_________________________________________________________

Maybe it's because you care enough that you said all those things,otherwise you probably wouldn't have thought of tallking to us. Thank you.
& Thank you D for helping me see that.
& Thank you Karen for always being there.
I might not get to see you that much anymore but I really miss you.
I feel...or WE feel INCOMPLETE.

I feel like my dreams just shattered a little yesterday.
There's so much more than just purely music in this Mega fake Super mean place.

help.

I miss 小珂 :(
She misses us too :(
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